I’m just going to rant
I’m really stressed out. I sit up at night and drafting and sketching out about my shows. And when I do sleep, I have nightmares. I have two pretty big shows coming up this week - one is a big 3 hour gig, and one is the burlesque show I mentioned before. I’ve been pretty agitated putting the acts together, including makeup, costume, programme, sound equipments, and schedules.
When I’m stressed, I do what most girls do. I eat greasy and go shopping.
Today I jumped out of bed at 2pm (I know, it’s terrible) and ran out of my apartment in a hurry to make my appointment, stopped over at McDonald’s to grab a combo meal. The fries were done perfect today, they are crispy, chewy, not too salty and so hot it burns the roof your mouth… it was heaven. While I was savouring e-ve-ry crispy hot fry, I wished I large sized it.
Cooled it off with a coke. I unwrapped the McDonald’s asian flavor of the month - Sichuan Mala Chicken burger and bit into a regular grilled chicken burger with a touch of spice and juiciness. I really like that bit of spicy kick, it’s so mild, I can practically slurp that sauce up with a straw. It’s way better than their short-lived Wasabi fish filet burger (yuk).
If I had time, I would have gone to “Fat Burger” or my feels-like-home “Burger King”
. But I was hungry and in a rush, so I chose what’s most convenient. Sorry greasy burger and Mr. potato… I’ll be there sometime next week. Promise.
After my appointments and work, I headed to Causeway Bay and shopped for my necessary Bobbie Brown lipgloss, makeup base, hair dye in black, Mac lipglass, hair gloss, facial oil absorbant paper (papier poudre), and false-lashes.
I’m debating on which false lashes I should use for the burlesque night. What’s your vote? The “Feather” or the Madonna “Diamond” lashes?
Been doing some research for the look and costume. Hair hopefully would be Dita von Teese inspired. Add false lashes, red lips, black corset, long red satin skirt… I need long black gloves.
I just gotta get my lyrics down. I’m jamming alot of songs in my head this week. GAH!!!
After I was done shopping, I bought 2 stewed milk custard (one for mom) to take home and relax. It’s one of those super comfort foods that just makes you forget that pounding headache…
I’ve got 23 songs to perform this week. *Gasp* *Heave*
For the 3-hour show, the first hour is be geared toward local Chinese sponsors… so I’ve decided to mix two mandarin songs together. **I’m doing a jazzier version of the original songs, so it’s not as.. err… wrist-slit-inducing…** One of the songs is about self-obsession and not regretting the way “I” (the singer) live my life whether it’s wrong or right. The other song is about being desperately in love, but turns out he never wanted anything to begin with. The two songs go really well together sharing their unyielding manner.
Got me really thinking how much I’ve changed since 10 years ago.
10 years ago, I would live my life the way I want to, and I wouldn’t care what other people think (I still kind of am, but definitely more weathered now)… and remembering being so desperately in love that even a little affection would enable me to keep holding onto a tragic romance. Re-learning these songs threw me back to that mentality… and something slowed down in me - I felt like I’ve been way too hard on certain things in the past few years.
Anyway, I’m going to post the translation of the desperately-in-love love song on this blog. It took me all weekend going through different online dictionaries (and with my mom’s expertise) and make sense out of it. Most of the translation goes in the similar poetic order of the song, but a line or two had to be rewritten to be clear. Some things just don’t translate.
Turns Out You Never Wanted Anything
I know this isn’t good
I also know you can only love so little
I can’t stop needing you, so bad makes you want to run away.
If only the tear on my pillow would dry
And you think these tears are senseless drama
But I had thought being with you could be my life’s pride
Turns out you never wanted anything
I don’t want your shelter, nor your rose
I just want you to love me once truly and deeply
Even if it’s out of vanity, even if it’s out of greed
What woman isn’t selfish and wishful when it comes to love?
I don’t want your promise, don’t want your eternity
I just want you to love me once truly and deeply
Even if it’s out of vanity, even if it’s out of greed,
but I fear your silence is your only gratitude.
Turns out you never wanted anything.
February 24th, 2009 at 7:11 am
Oh yeah baby……the Madonna “Diamond” lashes are hot!!!!
I like that Benny Goodman/Pegy Lee song too!
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February 24th, 2009 at 9:57 pm
Look at you, all that running around… I’m so excited for you. I wish I were over there I would run around shopping with you, and maybe even risk another fat gall attack to try one of those amazing flavoured McD treats (OMG, what a change that would be from bland Filet o’fish)…
I vote for the Diamond lashes too…
That last song/video is lovely. The lyrics are also so true, aren’t they? Cads.
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Wish you’re here too. I’ll totally love to play concierge for you (and your family).
It’s good to have a chinese interpretor in the house. The pronounciations are so difficult. But it’s much easier when the lyrics hit home. Hope you’re doing well. Miss you.
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February 25th, 2009 at 4:22 am
Is fatburger good? We had one for awhile, but it just shut down. I never got around to trying it, dang it all.
Chalk up another vote for the diamond lashes. You’re going to be so glamorous and gorgeous, I can’t wait to see pictures. Good luck, and take good care of your voice with all of this singing!
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I haven’t tried fatburger yet, but been meaning to… I made a note to drop by on my teaching route and grab one next week.
I’ve set up the song list so there are several gentler songs… it should help ease the stress and prevent oversinging. You’re awesome. Thanks
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February 25th, 2009 at 8:48 pm
My stomach is churning just thinking about a “wasabi fish filet” from McD’s!
I vote the diamond lashes. What are the names of the Mandarin songs and who sings them?
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This singer’s name is at the beginning of the video. I have no clue what her English name is. I don’t know how to pronounce her chinese name.
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March 2nd, 2009 at 6:43 am
Ah, the video wasn’t showing for me for some reason, but now I see it.:)
Oh and I tagged you in a great blogger award thing. Go to my blog for details.:)
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